men
this summer's been quite busy, on the men front. for me, that is. but however i look at it, i always end up in the weirdest situations. first, i met a guy whom i really fell for. that hadn't happened in a long time, so i went out of my way to make sure we'd meet again, and even went out on a date with him. unfortunately, timing was incredibly poor, as he was between various trips around the world, and thus, only 'around' once every other month or so, and then only for a few days before setting off again. he eventually told me he wouldn't really have much time before october. fine. i can understand that this six-month long extravaganza is more important to him right now, as we barely know each other. but as he hasn't said anything further, like, he really wants to see me when he comes back, and as he really could have called me to tell me he couldn't, in fact, meet up with me the weekend we'd said we'd go out, i decided that meeting other people was an option.
guy number two, a guy i'd met previously, and whom i'd been attracted to the first time around, but he'd seemed otherwise engaged. this time he definitely wasn't, and we flirted a lot, and i gave him plenty of opportunities to 'act' (like, we were both lying in the grass watching the stars, the only light coming from a a dying grill, totally alone), but for some reason, he didn't. he did ask me whether i'd be willing to relocate to Germany (where he lives). i really doubt he's a regular emailer, so if we meet next year and we're both still single, something might come out of it then. third time lucky?
guy number three, my estate agent. first time we met, he insisted we'd met before. i thought he was just being lame. turns out he was right, as we eventually found out we'd gone to school together (it was a very big school). as he'd outrageously flirted with me the first time we met to discuss appartment buying, i called him up to ask him out the other day. don't know if he was just flustered, nervous, or not really interested anymore, but he said 'it doesn't bother me'. my friends think he was probably just flustered about being asked out on the phone (i tried to go to his office and talk to him face to face, but he was in a meeting, and as i had no other way of contacting him, i really had to call him at work). anyway, he said he'd call me to arrange a time this week. to which my male friend F says that he could have at least decided on a time when we were talking. he doesn't doubt the guy will call, but he finds it weird that he had to think about it.
so there you have it. am i doomed? i can't remember dating being this hard.
