panic!

last night was a nightmare. i woke up at 2am, completely panicked about my future. having decided that, unless tomorrow's interview goes incredibly well, i'll go for the job i was offered on Friday, i thought that would be it. no more worrying about it. that was without taking into account my twisted mind. millions of 'what if's whizzed through like there was no tomorrow. what if my boss really holds me to the two-month notice? what if he basically makes it impossible for me to start working for the other school and thus i'll end up with very few hours when i get there? what if everything falls through and i end up without a job? at night, these questions seem absolutely terrifying, and that's without thinking about the 'should i just give up trying to get out of language education as it obvsiouly isn't giving me up'?