humanity? barbarians, more like

i just saw a movie about the genocide in Rwanda, back in 1994. no-one did anything. like no-one really did anything in Bosnia, not until a hell of a lot of people had been killed. who are we kidding? we're no more human than animals. highly socialised, but animals nonetheless. it's all about who has power, money, weapons.

i have friends working for NGOs - one is currently in Sudan, trying to make sure people don't get blown to pieces by landmines, one in Sri Lanka trying to help with the Red Cross. i get regular reports from the one in Sudan and really, it's not great. he put his fist through a table the other day. the last i heard from Sri Lanka was bombings.

and let's not talk about the situation in China. or the doubling of food prices around the world, as crops that used to be cultivated for food are now used to make bio-fuel for our cars. and thus 100 million people are about to starve to death. and many more, i wager, as food prices are just as high here in Europe, and if the salaries don't increase as well, most of us are fucked anyway.

and yes, tomorrow i'll go back to work and try to lead a 'normal' life, and i know i have no clue about how desperate the situation really is, that even in my wildest dreams, i probably wouldn't be able to fathom it - and just as well really, as i'd probably have to kill myself. but still. most people don't even think about it, or they blank it out. and no, i'm not about to go out there myself, on the field, to help, because frankly, i don't think i can do anything about it. no-one can. you can try, but most probably fail. my father spent 22 years of his life working for the UN, hoping against hope to change things, but was left disillusioned and pessimistic. the only people who could, possibly, maybe, do something are the ones who won't, cos that would cost them their power, their money.