such an idiot!!!

i am such an idiot! honestly. last night, this nice guy offers to drive me home after i've missed my bus. i asked where he lived and it was the other, other end of town. which would mean him driving an extra 20kms to get home. which he obviously didn't mind doing. and what do i do? not what you're hoping...

you see, at the same time, i've had my eye on this other guy for months (yes, i know, i'm useless), and so although i know that guy number two (whom i like too, but i've only just met him) driving me home doesn't necessarily mean anything, i feel bad in case guy number one thinks i'm not interested anymore (not that he knows, i'm sure). so in the end, when a friend who lives close to me says he'll drive me home, i accept, and thus decline when guy number two offers, again, to drive me back. IDIOT!!!

so, after some serious talking with a couple of girlfriends, this is what's happened. i sent an email to guy number one, suggesting we go for a drink Friday night before we all go out. i then sent an email to guy number two, thanking him for his generous offer and saying that if i don't see him Friday night (when we're all out, i mean), we'll get together next week. and then i called the man in the street (see Saturday's post) and suggested we meet for drinks tomorrow evening. which he agreed to. as my girlfriends say, i don't owe anyone anything until something happens. with my luck, it's all going to go completely wrong but what the hell.