foot analysis

it's a Grinberg method thing, and i went for one yesterday. the way these people see it, is that the foot is a map of your body, of what ails it. and after answering a few questions, i was pretty much told what i already knew. but that's the point, isn't it: i know it, noone else is supposed to. it was just a little scary having a total stranger tell me about myself. the truth sounds a lot harsher when you actually hear the words. thinking it is one thing. hearing it...

it's all very nice and well but i can't really see there's a lot i can do about it. there are a lot of reasonably good reasons for what i do. yes, of course, i could stand my ground and tell the boss i can't work lunchtimes because i need to eat at regular times. in today's world, who exactly eats at regular times? and then i'd be out of a job, really. maybe i wouldn't be out of a job if i did it a little less thoroughly, but i'd feel like shit knowing i didn't do my best, and isn't that a little worse? and maybe i don't always say what i think - at least not right there and then, but after careful consideration as to the best wording, which yes, i probably spend too much time thinking about. well, yes, but there is such a thing as diplomacy at work, and even with friends, sometimes. as for the wall i put up around me, it's gone down a lot, in the last 10 years. and yes, it's still there, but again, there's a very good reason for it having gone up in the first place. and as it's constantly disminishing, i'm at least going in the right direction, no?

so that was that. obviously, it's all to do with my upbringing and my own standards. but i wouldn't be me if i didn't have all that, would i?