i fucked up

yesterday was an awful day. it really was. my students (all adults) were misbehaving, as usual. well, maybe misbehaving is a strong word, but i kept having to repeat instructions, explanations and they kept not listening, being late back from break, etc. this had been going on for a week. and then i just lost it. i told one of them, who was talking with another student, to leave the room 5 mns. she looked at me and asked me if i was joking. by then, even though i'd realised it was not a good idea, i had to stand my ground. she started screaming at me. i screamed back at her. she left. went straight to reception and screamed some more, was then caught by the boss and screamed a little more.

can't be bothered to go into details here, but i felt really bad after that. all day. couldn't eat lunch. barely ate dinner. talked with the boss just after it happened, then talked to my supervisor. it was good. then, this morning, i apologised to everyone again, apologised to her especially, admitted that i perhaps had expectations that were a little too high. we seem to be back to normal. i feel loads better now. but boy do i hope this never happens again...