conspiracy theory

i was watching a rerun of the first X-Files episodes, and i was reminded of how strongly Mulder always feels about conspiracy theories. this particular episode was about a computer engineer who'd managed to create artificial intelligence that had then taken over. at the end of the episode, no trace was left of the event, all nicely cleaned up by the feds, or whoever. while Scully was trying to convince Mulder that, surely, the government wouldn't let such things (mostly manipulating the population into believing, or not, some things) happen, i couldn't help but feel as sceptical as Mulder. after all, why not? what would stop the government from hiding loads of things from us?

that same week i found myself on a blog where this guy was disputing our ever walking on the moon. he gave arguments, links to more arguments and pictures, so i went and read it all. although i thought some of it was worthless, i did come out of it thinking mostly that, really, it's all a big scam, and we never got that far. let's face it, what happened to building a complex on the moon, to having people live there and do research on a permanent basis? over thirty years later, nothing. which doesn't really do much for their whole 'let's go to Mars' thing. not in our lifetime anyway.

so, as a normally confident and believing soul, i now find myself questioning every single bit of info i get. good in a way, bad in another. it would be nice to feel secure in the world we live in, it would be nice to trust our leaders just a little and believe that they are trying to make ours a better world. just a little...